so yet again I haven’t been online for a long while.. its is now October 21st. So my eating habbits have maintained the same but I havent been counting calories or really removed anything from my eating regiment. But I’ve also been going up and down between 289 and 294… I couldn’t go down and I didn’t know how.. the moment it went up a bit I completely stopped trying..  yup that’s the big issue with me.. if I don’t see results NOW then I get discouraged.

Well two weeks ago, when i reached 296… I decided to kick myself and to start over again… change my eating habbits .. not cut what I like but to try new things (especially veggies and fruits) I know I should be eating alot more of them then I am. So used to eating poorly even as a child that I’m not too sure where to go from here.  So I’ve decided to limit my intake of Breads, pastas and potatoes and add alot more fruit and veggies.. well that did it for me.. we are now 2 weeks later and I weighed this morning and I’m now at 283.. I have a hard time believing it but then again I’ve been very careful.. it’s a constant struggle.

We I crave something I always have to stop and think.. do I really want this or need it.. and what is it about it that I’m craving.. like the other day I wanted chips.. so I thought what is it about chips that I wanted. and it was the crunchy sound… so I decided to go for celery instead… if it would have been the salty taste I probably would have picked something else to replace it.  It’s crazy how a lifetime of bad habbits is hard to break.. I’ve never even noticed how much I eat.. I’ve always been told to finish my whole plate so for me gaging the size of a serving is SOOOOOOOOOO hard…  When I go out to eat.. I feel like I need to pick something big and tasty as I am paying for it.. like it’s not worth it to go out and pay for a plate full of salad or an omelet or a bowl of soup.. weird mentality I know but that is what I am currently working on.